Yeah, my parents' marriage in shambles,
I won't lie, it hurts
I thought money
would fix it,
but it just made it get
worse
See my dad was
the man, 'til
his
job cut ties
He went broke, I got rich,
that shit fucked with his pride
Yeah, I recognize it was
disturbing to see
The family stopped turnin' to him and
started turnin' to me
Going through it,
I know he tried to hide the
pain
If he gave up and got a job,
his dad died in
vain
'Cause his dad ran a business
So my dad tried to run one too but
there's a difference
No income, my dad started los
in' his confidence
Meanwhile, everyday I got brand
new accomplishments
At the height of my
career was his lowest
And that's a lie, 'cause we
both still goin'
Me up, him down,
it caused a lot of angst
Argument got out of hand,
had to call Frank
All my efforts ignored,
he threw it all in my face
There's not a song long
enough where I can say what I gave
Shit's crazy, mom couldn't
believe 'em
I mean she's cried in the past, you
know, threatened to leave him
But she never had the money to, but
I got
it now
It's bittersweet that this
is how I bought my mom a house
Oh well, guess I should
have seen it comin'
All the tears, all the threats, all
the fightin' and fussin'
Hardly any lovin', way too much hate
Finally tried to change,
mom said it's too late
Move out day came and went, still in shock,
shit
Doesn't even know where
my mom's new spot is
Wasn't the first time but
this was the worst time
Hurt by your own family is the worst kind
All this shit been happenin'
while I was blowin' up
And it's still going on,
now you know what's up
Yeah, I got way too much stress
for any more bad press
Especially another lie that they make
up and stretch
Damn, I can't lie, shit is takin' a toll
So much hate sent to me, some
stays in my soul
To the point that when I walk into the booth,
that's what I let out
Makes for good songs but
mentally I'm tryna get out
Tryna focus on the good,
not the evil
Can't complain,
this how I always greet people
I'm exhausted, exasperated from the pain that
I'm facin' and masquerading
Don't get it twisted,
I'm grateful for everything
But the devil's still
asking for a wedding ring
I decline, try to focus on love
Try to focus on fans,
try to focus on Russ
Everyday another lie, sometimes
it feels like a curse
Sometimes it feels like necessary
preparation for first
Yeah, it rains sometimes
even when it shines
Don't give up, don't give up
I know it rains sometimes
even when it shines
Don't give up, don't
Yeah,
it
rains sometimes
even when
it shines
Don't give up, don't give up
I know it rains sometimes even
when it shines
Don't give up, no