Key: F# minor
Verse 1
Em
C
Ayy, I can only hide it for so
Em
long
So many moments that
I want to say so long
So many missed calls, so many mistakes
People I misjudge,
Togetherness misgrew me,
Karen's a mismove
Never saw my value,
looking at me as Miss Price
Now I'm giving back space,
letters I've mistyped
ain't finding the love for me
but she ain't fucking me
It's like I'm a system,
And I sit and watch them leave
even without me
If it meant I starved, I'd see y feast
So before y 'all peace,
I beg to speak my peace
Now, everyday there's
a word that I question
And it's becoming an absurd obsession
Even when I'm with her, obsessin'
Cause I really hate the word depression
And then I sit and overthink
and start seeing the lies
From people that say they love me
Looking right at my eyes
and how you all annoy me
And I'm looking at you like flies,
I still give you everything
Until the day that I die
I still give you everything
Until the day that I die
I still give you everything
Until the day that I die
And that
C
Em
Kinda sound perfect right now
So I'm hurting right now
working right now
When I could be smoking
But this loud ain't working right now
I don't know where my mind at
On a search for stability
But don't know where to find at
That I smile at
Em
C
When I'm back where I lie at
And then I vanish
No one to see me in my mind at
Em
C
Tears dripping with the hits
That I high hat
G
C
I might as well had a kawaii laugh,
a fucking joke,
and I don't fucking learn
Em
C
Not everyone is down for you, get evil
to temporary people
G
C
Not every love is your precious,
Em
B
C
And I give and I give and they take
And there's so much I've
been trying to say
Em
C
And it gets on my nerves like an itch
act strong for these fans
I don't know cause I look like a bitch
I'm startin' to break
Why the fuck am I like this?
Why the fuck am I not alright?
Why the fuck did I fight this?
Em
C
I hate your place, I hate your poise
I'll be happy if I didn't
have to see you again
C
Em
But I can't help but stand there
C
Em
Lookin' deep into my own brown eyes
I just stand there
B
C
Got a brother that got me with these scars
she directed at me
You were busy being big,
bloody gangster nigga
Em
B
But got the nerve to sit in
jail and wonder
C
Em
Why I want nothing to do with you,
I never could've said
I'ma get my older brother like
What the fuck is even family?
Em
C
Holidays coming, no one at the table
that my shit gon' fail
And I should go with his corny ass
Fuck you and fuck that cable
I got it buried in my goddamn brain
Em
That family ain't shit if they don't act it
C
Em
Our only connection is our last name
Em
And due to fools and what they choose to do
led me to reflectin'
This one nigga I've known since
I was fuckin' three
C
Em
An d now we at the point where I don't
still my God's son
I've been fucked up for a minute now
Didn't admit it, but I admit it now
Give a fuck about some time spent
Our childhood long gone nigga
And our other homie just had a daughter
B
Em
And I don't know how
Cause this nigga always
Like we aren't close at all
He just hasn't said it
And sayin' shit like when you
It makes me so sick
All alone in my room,
Doing streams,
I'm done wearing the mask
Em
C
B
I'm done wearing the smile
if we talking or not
It's not like we have in a while
Em
C
And I couldn't be madder at y 'all
from my younger me
C
Em
C
Screaming I don't matter to y 'all
And I've always tried laughing it off
Cause we been through so much,
but after it all
Even when I get plaques on the wall
Can't say I got a real
good support system
But I guess that's how this shit goes
Em
Niggas down, I'll be all up in the videos
C
Em
C
But never wanna pull up to a show
care of the seeds,
love to reap the benefits
So I just want my mans to know
When I got all this cash to throw
We can be cool and all that
But don't think that means
I got so much fucking love to give
And I spread that shit out
to ones that don't deserve it
to cease to love y 'all
C
Em
No matter how much that I sit here hurting
me I'm fucking up
Em
C
And I'll never be shit but a mockery
with a fucking soul
Cause they won't try to
made me my own enemy
I ain't been feeling alive
Before this I was damn near feeling I'd die
C
Em
Does this make me soft as a man?
C
Em
This is an L, I'ma hold it
I'm tired of being hopeless
And making shitty people stay the closest
B
Em
I'm this torn up
how y 'all think,
and what y 'all feel,
I think I need help,
Em
C
or maybe I just gotta toughen up
and end up puttin' rounds to
C
B
or I should just move to the state
C
Em
Or maybe I should give
Em
C
sayin' I should put a fucking gun in my face
I don't know who to fucking talk to,
Em
C
I don't know who the fuck's a homie
I don't know what to turn to,
I don't know what'll help me cope
Em
C
I don't know, I don't fucking know,
Em
C
if I should even hold on to hope
I don't know no more,
Em
C
I don't know where to
What to say or to show no more,
I don't know no more,
I don't know where to go no more
Em
Em
What to say, gotta show no more,
I just really don't know no more
C
Em
I don't know, I don't fucking know
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