After all my years of doubting,
faith then broke the surface
Always felt like God was near,
I've been overlooked for years,
it's all a part of purpose
More confident in myself,
But still when I'm put on the spot,
Deep inside, I feel like I was
But in my mind, I hear these lies
And questioned if I'm doing this for God
I'm accidentally saving lives,
I think they need my help
My biggest lesson these days,
I've learned to be myself
I don't really want no fame
and I don't need the wealth
I had to cast manipulating
and then I played the victim
Steady runnin' into demons,
They either tryin' to take me out
or tryin' to take me with them
Stress got me creatin' addiction,
I'm tryin' to run from it
Growin' up was like bad luck,
That explains why I'm never pleased
and I'm always wantin' somethin'
Music make me feel like a winner,
Most of my family not involved,
hope you don't leave them out
They can never need me at all,
I'm still gon' be reachin' out
I've been trapped between
but I think he freed me now
Because they never seen me at all,
I done had so many fake friends
that it made me cutthroat
Every woman I was with was a soul tie,
Always need someone around me,
I'm pretending in all my photos
and I still don't know who my dad is
Searching for acceptance,
I ended up with some bad friends
I know that I'm forgiven,
but still guilty over past sins
Which leads me to a place of anxiety,
I could tell I'm bipolar,
Suppressing this depression,
I got people thinking I'm crazy
I get hot -headed, my temper just like a baby
who think that I'm never changing
I know every day that my lady
that she just might leave me
That's the same result of mistakes
Unsatisfied with how I'm livin',
I keep needin' love and affection
but still end up in a depression
I heard Jesus is the way,
it just made me feel more neglected
I don't get what I'm expecting
it makes me feel more rejected,
but it leads me to be selfless