I think once I took my first Vicodin, it was just like, this feeling of,
You know, like everything was not only
mellow, but didn't feel any pain
It just didn't, it just kind of
I don't know at what point exactly it
I just remember likin' it more
People tried to tell me that
I would say, "Get that fuckin' person out of here, I can
't believe they said that shit to me
They know nothin' about my fuckin'
life, are they out of their fuckin' mind?"
I'm not out there shootin' heroin
I'm not out there fuckin', you know,
You're struggling with the argument of
or do you not have a problem?
Can you control it, or can
And I literally thought I could control
that people are giving you that
And they look, they're shaped like something that you take,
so you take it, you know?
mean? It's the same thing
It's all in the same family,
Had I had got to the hospital about two hours later,
My organs were shutting down,
my liver, kidneys, everything
They were gonna have to put me on dia
lysis, they didn't think I was gonna make it
My bottom was gonna be death,
within a month, I had relapsed
And shot right back up to the
same amount of pills that I was taking
I remember just walking around my house and
thinking every single day, like
Like, I'm, I'm lookin' at my kids, and I need
Coming off of everything, I literally was up twenty-
four hours a day for three weeks straight
not even nodding off for a, a fucking minute
Like, I was literally just up, like,
I had to regain mo tor skills,
I had to regain talking skills
It's been a, a learning process,
like, it's been, I'm growing
I just couldn't believe that anybody
could ever be naturally happy
Or naturally function, or be just enjoying life
Without being on something
So, I would say that to, to any body that it,
You know? It just, it does