Blackness cored deep past
I know, I know that I'm scared.
you were never even there
If the rope snapped while I was climbing
But if I've fabricated this fantasy,
the very fiber is holding me
If my gravity is fragility,
I have nowhere to land at all
You can take away my ground
but at least give me my body, my feet.
I found myself at a place
Stabbing things in the face
And I always thought we were
You were standing right beside me.
I knew every reason and retort.
Every response, word, and verse
And when people asked me,
I pushed back faster, yet somehow
I ended up pushing too hard, too fast
I pushed past and broke through the looking glass,
Suddenly it seemed like everything I ever knew, and you,
sink on down to the bottom
Are you waiting there for me?
Oh, if I drown in the water
Sink on down to the bottom
Are you waiting there for me?
I may be scared but I'm not sorry
you told me to be bold and I was daring
you told me to have faith and I
with every part of me I looked
I searched the corners and
to see where where had I hidden my pride where had I buried the guilt and the shame
of that moment when I turned away but I couldn't find it all that exists
is a desperate desire to do what was right.
trying to find something that I cannot define,
some agenda I have seen mocked and undermined.
I want to live for more than that
and I will not see this precious life,
this gift I have been given
I will swim, soar, fall, fail, or fly.
if you're still getting this message,
because I thought I'd find
And if there is nothing left after this,
if I am only meant to exist,
that it mars the very dirt.
Tie me, both wrists tie me
I want to live for all I'm worth.
If I drown in the waters,
Are you waiting there for me?
Are you waiting there for me?
If I drown in the waters,
Are you waiting there for me?
sink I'm down to the bottom of the great sea
Are you waiting there for me?
sink I'm down to the bottom of the great sea
Are you waiting there for me?
Are you waiting there for me?